Relatively fewer downs than ups for certain. But, my world has been inverted and refined since I broke my jaw on the early morning of March 5. I’ve been processing all the emotions, supposed meanings, and truth that is my life. When I feel like “whatever I am is perfect” is when the ups happen. The downs are always surprising, to me, the calculated competitor.
As I heal from an epic fall-turned-surgery, I am learning more about my real self than ever before. I partially blame all the scans I’m getting for this. The other reason I am learning is because of my career as a writer and researcher. Getting referrals for the very specific care that my medical case requires, would be more exhausting if I didn’t have a