As I heal from an epic fall-turned-surgery, I am learning more about my real self than ever before. I partially blame all the scans I’m getting for this. The other reason I am learning is because of my career as a writer and researcher. Getting referrals for the very specific care that my medical case requires, would be more exhausting if I didn’t have a desire to heal. Being on the mend requires that I keep a certain quality and amount of energy in my body. The right kind of energy can act like a key, further unlocking my body’s healing potential. And I, need ALL of the physical healing that I can get. Being into holistic medicine is something I live in my daily life. Some people call me a Hippie. But I am like a next gen Hippie. A Happie. Haha In the midst of my journey through healing from jaw surgery and three break sites, you might be happy to know that I’m taking it easy. I am doing first for myself, and then for others. Being “sick” or in my case recovering from surgery while healing from broken bones, is perfect cause for slowing down. Despite any mental energy that I have, my body always seems to take control. When I’m tired, I rest. Sometimes for 10 hours. When I am hungry, I take all the time and care and “Happie space” in the world for eating. My relationship with food has changed for the time being. Liquid everything. Rule #1: I must enjoy the meals that I am ingesting, which also have to align with both my tastes, and medical/healing needs. Recently, I sat in my surgeon’s office. He is in Mesa AZ and is a DDS. A surgeon-dentist. He is well respected because “he is thorough” (from what I was told by a doctor/resident who was at my surgery assisting my surgeon). So, I was sitting in the nice padded chair, and was glad to see sunlight from behind a nice cool glass, with a little bit of leaves and bushes to appreciate in my front view. A moment later I was being “un-wired” with the potential that I’d graduate to the next step of my care program. The next steps are to take off the wires permanently, and install rubber bands. But, no luck. Photo Reaction Re-Cap: Look up, L to Right, you can see snapshots of me before getting unwired; next, you can see the metal currently in my mouth. Yes my mouth is wired shut using actual wire. Third, after being unwired, I am open-mouthed for 45 minutes. That time was spent productively, as I was trying to open and close my mouth on a jaw that is sort of “brand new” to me. (Unknown how I was going to feel UN-wired, I expected soreness.) I found that the muscles in my tongue are not exactly strong right now. Those weakened/currently unused muscles in my jaw/face feel like they are tied directly to the jaw-break site on the same side of my face. WOW what an intense reality being un-wired was. As I was being wired again, I cried, but that’s healthy. I did feel a bit devastated to be wired, again. But, another appointment was set for 2-weeks. After the appointment I realize that I am not a quitter. I already have a plan in process to accelerate the healing process of my bones and tissues. I’ll talk about my Next Level Healing below. That same day, but at night, I switched gears and readied myself emotionally for the launch of the Jack Stuler Foundation non-profit organization launch project that I’ve been co-spearheading since last June. My client and partner, Sabina Kelly-Allen is Jack Stuler’s daughter, and the Director of the organization. Along with Marilyn Hayes and Neil Miller, the Phoenix Art Museum classroom was a perfect backdrop for our very first event. I’ll write about this soon, and have some fun pictures and WAY COOL NEWS FOR ARTISTS IN AZ. The image you see above is lights dimmed inside the presentation. I’m standing at the back of the classroom, and there are about 35 people in attendance for this InFocus-sponsored lecture.
Just before that evening’s event though…I had received favorable news from the Children’s Museum of Phoenix. My “Pin and Eye” (“two little guys”) photography is going to be placed on-exhibit inside the Museum! I will post more about this soon. Such a cool opportunity, and I am grateful to have had the inspiration to create a specialty visual presentation and written proposal to them. This is my first art submission! Home Run!
The Current Chapter Is The Next Level Of My HealingWhere am I at now? You know, the next day after the JSF launch event, which was yesterday. That was also a big day for me. I went to visit a specialist and 42-year veteran in the holistic dentistry realm. His name is Dr. Nicholas J. Meyer. There is an injection therapy called PRP that Dr. Meyer performed. My fear of needles is lessening, the more I encounter them. Needles aside, I’ll soon write about my unique day at his office in the Scottsdale area. Fascinating avenues for healing exist for my particular situation and case. My care has to be very specialized at this point, or my health could decline quickly. I refuse to decline in my health, because I like healing as a lifestyle normally, anyway. More on this holistic dentistry adventure coming soon to this blog.
Wayne Schoeneberg and I have a unique interpersonal relationship.We met through another person, Molly, pre 9/11. Then on 9/11/2001, Wayne called Molly to wake us up. He was in St. Louis at his HQ, and we were in Harlem. He wanted us to wake up and know that something was happening just a couple miles away from where we were. I was there visiting. Wayne ended up driving up to see us. Lots of precious memories there, too.
Wayne has a special place in my memory and life.And recently, Wayne lost a dear friend, Charles. We all know him as Chuck Berry, but Wayne was Charles’ lawyer and friend. Over their decades of friendship and collaboration, many memories were made. Can you imagine the reality of being best friends and hanging out with Chuck Berry in all sorts of situations? Can you imaging having Chuck Berry as your long-term client?
IN a recent e-mail from Wayne’s newsletter list:
Good Bye My Friend: For more than 20 years this man was my friend and client. I knew him as Charles. Most of the world knew him as Chuck Berry. He was a very complex man. But he was better than good to me. I got the opportunity to say good bye to him at his funeral. Click the link to see a video from his funeral. He changed the music world as it was known then and as it will be known for many years to come. It was a privilege to get the opportunity to serve him as his attorney and to know him as my friend.
Well, I will let Wayne tell you more himself.In this brief video, Wayne recently spoke to those who gathered to remember the man and miracle music-maker, Charles “Chuck” Berry. CLICK HERE TO LISTEN & WATCH. Dear Wayne: You sounded as beautiful and eloquent as-always.
After growing up in a loud, violent and conservative Christian home, and after decades of perpetuating various forms of abuse in my own households, I steadfast became a renunciant. This choice was at-first unconscious, and also it took decades for me to better understand my will around the decision… to be different than I was. I spiritually needed to renounce not only violence and religion, but also prevent denial of myself, and disallow mental separation from my spirit. What a renunciant at some deep levels of consciousness does, is keep track of what their shadow side wishes for, what acts society is committing, and how “people of the world” are. And for example, then would forego those wishes, or stop doing and saying what others are doing to be accepted. Part of me feels like renunciation can appear as a rebellion against the anti-self. Whether or not you have ever tried to wean yourself off of modern or religious lifestyles, I have. Renunciation of any life aspect or value system, takes a lot of focus and commitment. Pain is common. But, what is pain? It is universal, that’s what it is. It’s best (in my opinion) that I become intimate with my pains. The lessons that I have learned — for myself — may be resonant with you. My statements of renunciation are common to many in my networks and spheres of influence. It feels “easy” for me to be a renunciant, when all I have to do is agree with statements such as:
- NO, I will not buy a luxury car that runs on fossil fuels that are (face it) destroying life on earth.
- NO, I will not attempt to support war or acts of biased hatred against any others.
- NO, I will not watch “our amazing TV show” and be distracted from entertaining my purpose (and friends!) in real life.
- I love you Alisha
- I have always loved you Alisha
- I will always love you Alisha
Humbling Loving Full Moon of Shining Self-Realization and Truth (I Intend To Realize These Experiences): Learned from prior choices Re Commit to total self-respect Moderation over sensation Asking For Guidance & Listening Enacting Miracles & Acknowledging (Them) Preparing For Wild Success Enjoy Every Opportunity for healing, advancement & forgivenessAnd with a full month’s timing already coming past, I look on that list of intentions without criticism, and with self-compassion. I have indeed had a range of newness and experiences that are beyond my prior imagination. I had never imagined myself to someday be limited from my normal physical jaw function. Having been in some ways humiliated by simple living this past month, I am apt to bring more self-awareness into my integrated ways of being. No one should become a renunciant, unless they find causes to. It is not always glamorous to go against the proverbial grain, nor is it safe always, or wise to share to everyone about. If there is one thing that I will NOT be renouncing this full moon, it is my love for myself. Indeed, during this last period of partial physical disability, I have mulled over my life. It is true that I have internally scanned for, and also have found incidental and accidental reflections of who I am being, and what I want to be. This inquiry and exploration speaks to my desire to loving myself and others more. Since again, love is the ultimate and only truth that I know. (Although, I do not prefer or personally subscribe to sharing space or brain waves with those who discourage or abuse me.) Yes, self-love is a new pendant which I now proudly wear. Whatever shape this coming full moon finds you in, and however far along in my healing process I actually am, I am prepared to write another list of full moon intentions. Only this list, this time, I will do it for all our sakes. Not just mine. I’ve never tried that exactly, in this way. And for you, and me, I will use my left-hand in careful expression of what may be. I hope that the full moon after next finds us more tied together in love than ever before. I shall renounce the alternative. If you’re interested, you can click below to enlarge my left-handed intentions from the last full moon. Thank You for reading.
Question: Have you ever considered what life would be like, without the joys of Arts and Music? Oh, how I love the Arts and Music. Whoever you are, the Arts and Music have likely forever changed and improved your quality of life.I have been personally involved with the Arts and Music since childhood. There have also been spans of time in adulthood that I did not produce even one project for many years. (A silly mistake, in retrospect.) But then sometimes, there are entire YEARS where I am like a production machine. In the last few years, instead of being “on again, off again,” I have been practicing staying steady with producing new works. This approach feels more comfortable to me, and this website is a result of that more balanced approach.
My Confession Is That…In my heart’s fondest and most fun wish, I want to be one of these special persons! Yes! I will be a successful and happy Artist and Musician, that knows how-to make a living by sharing the beauty and FUN of the Arts. It is my right to try, anyway! And so, this website is dedicated to fulfilling my playgirl’s dream of “supporting myself” with my creative productivity.
“Artists. Musicians. Ones that are successful, and who know how-to make a living producing their art, are a rare breed. As a business person and fledgling Artist and Musician, I have forever envied the lives of famous Artists.”